lately...

  I never wanted to be a working mom.  If you had asked me in high school what I wanted to do with my life, I would have told you that my life goal was to be a stay at home mom.  That never really changed.  In fact, Bob and I were married 6 years before we decided to have a baby mostly for this reason.  It was not until I was about to turn 27 that I decided I wasn't getting any younger and we decided to take the plunge.  That was about a year ago.  It's funny how we end up places in our lives that we never thought we would.  I think alot of us can identify with that.  I think that is part of God growing and stretching us, showing us how much we need Him.

  Last week (my second full week back at the bank) was a rough one.  I knew that it would be hard to go back, really I did... And I knew I would be emotional.  And I am.  I was fine the first week, but the second week the tears kicked in.  First of all, let me tell you that though I miss him terribly, my sweet little boy is being taken care of by a great friend that I can really trust.  It is hard to be away from him, but it is a real to know that he is being loved-even when I'm not there.  I guess the really hard part is just getting back in the swing of things.  I am so tired!  That, coupled with a stress filled work week (they won't all be like that I hope...) and being hormonal (when does that stop???), my 28th birthday tipped me over the top.  After a small nervous breakdown (on my birthday) and talking it out with my sweet husband, I am feeling much better.  I expect myself to get everything right and for everything to be easy and get frustrated when it's not perfect.  I am so in need of grace!  I am so thankful for the grace and mercy from our Savior that is new every morning.  I was reminded of that even more by Pastor Bubba on Sunday.  I felt like he was speaking truth right into my heart.  I am so amazed at how God works!

  We had a great weekend with a visit from Bob's sister Carolyn (aka Aunt Winnie) and his Mom (aka Mumsy).  It was nice to relax and Mumsy left us with a fridge full of food and a newly organized baby's room.  This week is definitely promising to be better than the last.  Tomorrow is a day off and we are hoping for a visit from some of my family this weekend.  Can't wait...